Loto Journal
An evolving exploration of consciousness, spirituality, relationship, and what it means to flourish together.
Through personal storytelling and curious inquiry, we explore consciousness and the Self, contemplative spirituality and mysticism, psychology and somatic healing, creativity and relationship, and our connection with nature and the living world. Along the way, our Founder, Jennifer, shares letters from her travels as a digital nomad, exploring the people, places, traditions, and sacred landscapes that continue to shape her journey.
Reader’s Note: In an attempt to bring a conscious sense of responsibility to our language (where inclusivity and equality matter), in our Loto Wellness Collective blog content, except for direct quotes, the pronouns often used for God are They/Them in reference to Great Spirit, the I AM, the Universe. Also, we have taken the liberty of capitalizing the term “True Self” or “Self” so you will know that we are not referring to the “false self” (psychological egoic self), but the foundational Self that we are in God, Imago Dei.
Allow Me to Re-Introduce My Self
You Don’t Get Resurrection Without Death
Surrender in Suffering
View from the Precipice of Change
Erosion. Hmmm, that word feels like the best way to describe what life has felt like for the last two years—So many layers of my identity are being stripped down, false narratives revealed and healed, and comfort zones surrendered away.
My life mirrors this canyon landscape: each season has been carving away what no longer serves, slowly revealing what's essential.
The Fall Equinox 🍁 A Sacred Turning
The Fall Equinox is an invitation for us to gather what has been fruitful in our own lives and to release what has run its course. It is a season of both gratitude and surrender.
Marguerite Porete: The Mystic Who Loved Beyond the Bounds
Marguerite Porete—Challenges us to trust Love with everything.
Test Me and See
This got me thinking about Joshua leading the Israelites into the promised land—conquering the walls of Jericho, not through weapons and might, but through trust and obedience. God had promised them a victory. They were to “fight” not for victory but from a place of victory. I was reminded that, as children of the One True King, we don’t have a battle to win; we have a victory to claim through faith.
Surrender, Generosity & Mission
While soaking in the tub looking out over the view of the valley, I heard the Spirit say to me, “See, I told you I would give you even more than you could ever ask or imagine. Enjoy this bath in My garden of creation.” I had been longing for my old garden soaking tub, as great as it was, but God was showing me that this longing for Egypt wouldn’t compare to what Jesus had in store for me.
Trust & Surrender
As I turn the final page on this season of my life here in Colorado, I can't help but reflect back. Being here in Salida over the summer, nestled deeply in the forest on *ancestral land (representing five generations of my family), I have rediscovered Jehova Shammah's (The Lord is There) voice, awakened to creation, and grounded deeply into my familial roots.
My time of rest in the forest has been the penultimate in a long season of my learning the role of trust and surrender in flourishing.
The Fruit of the Spirit Devotional: Surrendering Self and Control 🍓
Facing Our Fears
The fact that this blog posts exists means I survived my first skydive jump.
Contributors & Collaborators
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