Jennifer Axcell
Founder & Champion of Rest for Loto Wellness Collective & Editor-in-Chief of Loto Living Magazine
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Jennifer is a multi-passioned naturalist and contemplative who loves travel, extreme sports, listening to music, flower gardening, elevated design, painting naked, reading, learning, and investing in people and activities that fill her energetic cup.
She is currently living as a digital nomad, slow-traveling around the globe and discovering cultural practices of rest and self-care. As an artist, she seeks inspiration from her travels and new ways to express the depths of her soul through creative expression.
She is madly in love with Jesus and, as a modern day Desert Mother and Christian mystic, is focused on intimately knowing herself in God, abiding in Christ’s Consciousness, and sharing the divine wisdom she has received.
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After graduating from high school early, Jennifer started her college career studying business in Denver, ultimately receiving her BFA in fashion design and merchandising from the Academy of Art in San Francisco. She first became an entrepreneur at 24.
The daughter and granddaughter of entrepreneurs, her first entrepreneurial endeavor was building Beyond Black, an image consulting and fashion styling business in California. Since then, she has been passionately creating service-based businesses across the country.
As a philanthropist and social entrepreneur, she has contributed to the development and growth of multiple nonprofit organizations and served on a variety of nonprofit Boards.
Her passion for volunteering her God-given talents and time has her currently serving Boundless ministries on their Infinitum Virtual Encounters team, creating content, and co-hosting their monthly prayer days.
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Jennifer is an autodidact and channels her curiosity into skill-building and personal development. She learns best by doing.
She has been an avid practitioner of yoga for over 20 years, and has been facilitating yin yoga classes since 2018. She received training through YogaFaith, accredited by the Yoga Alliance.
After years of practice and exploration through her own healing journey, Jennifer was trained in sacred medicine breathwork and meditation by Collette Elosha of Love Culture.
Her passionate exploration of somatic healing techniques led her to become a sound bath musician and was taught how to utilize her Voice as Medicine with Maria Tierra.
Jennifer received her Morning Altars certification to be able to offer this tool of ritual and beauty in online workshops and during retreats.
She was trained as a Janzu Mother in Amatlán, Mexico in 2025.
“The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet.”—Frederick Buechner
I didn’t find this path. I was led into it—slowly, unwillingly at first.
I grew up in the evangelical church. It was my mother tongue. The language I learned to speak to God, about God, and—if I’m honest—the language I learned to perform belonging. And for a long time, it resonated. Until it didn’t.
There came a season where the words I had no longer held the weight of what I was experiencing. Burnout. Disorientation. A quiet, persistent ache that something true was being asked of me—and I didn’t yet have the courage to answer.
So life did what it does. It unraveled me.
The Wilderness
In 2021, everything shifted. I encountered God in a mystical vision—one of those moments that doesn’t ask for your understanding, only your surrender.
I knew, without knowing how I knew: my life would not continue as it had. This came with the chaos of lockdown. The stripping away was when something new was planted.
A call to leave what was familiar. To step into the unknown. To become a digital nomad and follow a path I couldn’t yet see. I recognized it for what it was: A wilderness season. Not a detour—but an initiation. A place where what was false would fall away, and what was true would begin to emerge.
Where I would learn not to force, but to receive. Not to strive, but to surrender.
Not to perform, but to listen. The wilderness didn’t give me answers. It gave me space. And in that space, something new began to take root.
Losing My Religion, Finding My Faith
This was the beginning of my deconstruction. Not a rejection of God—but a release of dualistic theology that had been built around God that no longer felt true. I began to encounter Christianity beyond performance, beyond certainty, beyond fear. I found my way into the contemplative tradition, into silence, into the body, into presence.
And then—I found the ones who had gone before me.
The Desert Mothers and Fathers. The wise ones. The ones who left empire, status, and noise behind to meet God in the wilderness. They didn’t try to control the mystery. They entered it. And for the first time, I realized: I wasn’t lost. I was walking an ancient path.
Returning
With time, I stopped trying to become someone new. What I found instead…was a return. A slow, often uncomfortable remembering of who I had always been beneath the roles, the expectations, the survival patterns, the fear-based need to be certain.
I faced the fear of leaving everything familiar, traveling alone, and being seen without the armor of certainty or egocentric identity. And on the other side of those fears wasn’t a better version of me—it was a truer one. One who could feel, listen, and trust again. Someone who experienced I AM not just as something to believe in—but as something to be with. To live from. To embody.
Not becoming—but returning to the truth of who I really am. I woke up.
Our journey isn’t becoming more than we are, because we are already complete. Rather, our journey is to awaken to, or align with, who we already are.”—Ted Dekker
It’s time to awaken.
Awakening
What I began to understand through all of this—the unraveling, the wilderness, the returning—is that this journey isn’t just personal; it’s collective.
We are living in a time of a great awakening. A remembering of who we are, who God is, and what it means to live in union, not separation. What I’ve come to understand of Christ Consciousness is that it’s not a doctrine, not something to achieve. But as a way of being.
Embodied Love. Presence. Deep knowing (gnosis). Union with the Divine that lives within and all around every single one of us. And this kind of awakening doesn’t happen in isolation.
Why Loto Exists
I didn’t build Loto to position myself as someone who has arrived (a guru). I built it because I know what it feels like to walk this path alone—To question everything. outgrow old frameworks, and to feel the tension between what you’ve known and what you’re beginning to see.
Loto is purposefully not centered around me. It’s a Well of shared Wisdom.. A place we gather. A place we draw from. A place we pour back into. A shared Well of Consciousness. Because no one holds the full picture. But together, we begin to see more clearly.
The Role of Women
There is something profound happening through women right now. Not because we are better than men, but because we embody Womb Wisdom. We are remembering the Divine Feminine in our bodies, intuition, and capacity to hold, feel, listen, and create life—not just physically, but spiritually, communally, energetically.
For generations, much of this has been suppressed, dismissed, or disconnected from faith altogether. And yet—this is where so much of the healing lives. As women return to themselves, they don’t just heal in isolation—they shift families. entire communities. and systems. They become anchors of presence in a world that has been shaped by urgency, control, and disconnection.
The New Humanity
I don’t believe we are here to escape the world. I believe we are here to participate in its renewal. What I see emerging—slowly, imperfectly—is a new way of being human. More embodied, attuned. connected to God, to self, and to each other.
Less driven by fear.
Less dependent on performance.
More rooted in Love.
This is the evolution of Consciousness. This is the unfolding of what has always been available to us—but is now being remembered more widely.
If You’re Finding Your Way Here
You don’t need me to tell you who you are. You already know.
Maybe not in words. Maybe not fully formed. But something in you is stirring. That’s enough. Loto exists to hold space for that stirring.To give it room. To reflect you back to you.
Not to lead you somewhere new— but to support your return.
A Final Word
I am not a savior or guru.
I am walking.
Listening.
Learning how to live this more fully, just like you.
And if our paths have crossed here, maybe we’re meant to walk together for a while. The well is open.
“There has never been a generation that has been given the detailed understanding of this glorious and divine mystery until now. He kept it a secret until this generation. God is revealing it only now to his sacred apostles and prophets by the Holy Spirit. Here’s the secret: The gospel of grace has made you, non-Jewish believers, into coheirs of his promise through your union with him. And you have now become members of his body—one with the Anointed One!”— Ephesians 3:5-6 TPT
