HELD
A Private Immersion in Deep, Intentional Care
For many, there comes a point when the ways you’ve learned to carry your life and others’—
to lead, to tend, to hold everything together for everyone—begin to feel heavy. Not wrong. Not broken. Just… unsustainable.
Our HELD container was created for that moment.
Not as an escape from your life—but as a space where you can finally experience yourself differently within it. A place where you are not expected to perform, produce, or keep it all together. A place where you can finally soften and receive.
HOW YOU ARE HELD
From the moment you arrive, the pace begins to shift.
You are welcomed into this modern beguinage in Salida, Colorado, by our international community of healing artists in residence, our Mothers, who live there as stewards of the land—gently guided into your body through quiet walks, open space, and the absence of urgency.
Meals are prepared for you. Time is made for contemplative rest, reflection, and integration. And the Mothers remain close—attuning to your energy, guiding the rhythm of your days, and holding the overall container of your experience. Nothing is rushed. Nothing is required.
You are not here to perform, process, or produce outcomes. You are here to receive mothering.
The Well
This FOUNDATIONAL package IncludeS on-site:Initial Zoom Consultation
Accommodations at the House of Loto
Collaborative Planning with Mothers
Opening/Closing Ceremonies
Somatic & Sensory Rituals
Contemplative Prayer Practices
Shinrin-yoku forest bathing at waterfall
Art Therapies
Actionable Recommendations
Integration Support
All bespoke packages are a minimum 4-day experience.
The Flow
THIS CUSTOMIZABLE PACKAGE INCLUDES EVERYTHING IN THE WELL, with the option to add these seasonal offerings from our MOTHERS IN RESIDENCE:Janzu Water Healing in Hot Spring Pool
Sound Meditation (option to be in water)
Myofascial Release
Physical Therapy
Ecstatic Dance
Drum Circle and Chanting
Cacao (Mayan tradition)
Aromatherapy & Ritual Creation
Hands-on Cooking Experience
Breathwork and Yoga
Fishing Excursion with Alpine Picnic
Each bespoke HELD experience begins with a foundational layer of support (The Well)—a steady, relational presence that allows your nervous system to soften over time. From there, we listen.
Together, we notice what your body is asking for, what feels ready to open, what wants to be met with care. Then, we gently weave in sessions with the Mothers—a collective of skilled healing artists who bring their own unique expressions of mothering care through bodywork, sound, water, movement, and presence. These are not scheduled for the sake of structure. They are offered in response to you.
Some days may remain spacious and quiet. Others may invite deeper engagement. There is no pressure to do more—only permission to receive what feels aligned.
The Deep
This PACKAGE INCLUDES EVERYTHING IN THE WELL, the option to add SERVICES FROM THE FLOW, AND more intensive and DEEPER options from our MOTHERS IN RESIDENCE:Rafting Excursion on the Arkansas River
Sky Diving Excursion
4-Wheeling Excursion with Alpine Picnic
Temazcal/Sweat Lodge (Lakota tradition)
Sacred Medicines Administered by our Licensed Medical Team
Ongoing 1:1 Integration Support
Our HELD immersions begin at The Well—a place of restoration, nourishment, and being gently held. From there, some women feel called to move with The Flow, allowing care to meet them more actively through the body, through touch, through presence.
And for those ready to be deeply supported and challenged, The Deep offers a more intensive experience and ongoing care—where mothering becomes deeper hand-holding.
You don’t need to decide this in advance. We will feel into it together.
THE RHYTHM OF YOUR DAYS
Your time here in the San Isabel National Forest unfolds slowly. Mornings begin with quiet presence—movement, stillness, or simply allowing your body to wake without urgency.
Afternoons may open into deeper care—time with the Mothers, creative expression, or space to be on the land.
Evenings soften again—shared meals, quiet conversation, or simple rest.
There is a natural rhythm of opening and integration, of being met and being with yourself. Everything is responsive.
The House of Loto
Our HELD private immersions don’t take place at a resort—they unfold within a modern beguinage, the House of Loto—on holy land that has been lived on, cared for, prayed over, and shared by the Held family for five generations. Like the forest, our cabins are not manicured spaces, but homes. Places where meals are eaten and prepared in a shared kitchen. Where mornings begin slowly. Where the rhythms of daily life are in tune with the nature that surrounds us.
Your HELD experience unfolds within the living ecosystem of an internationally reciprocal community—and the intimacy of being welcomed into the co-living space of the Mothers, where we live, create, gather, and practice contemplative life together. You are not checking into an experience designed for spectatorship.
The land holds its own medicine here—the waterfalls, clover fields, alpine lakes, fire circles, clear blue skies, and the slower pace of mountain living. These become part of the experience as much as any mothering session or ceremony. Nestled in the San Isabel National Forest on a multi-generational homestead above 9,000ft in elevation, at the base of Mt Shavano, you are not separate from the environment. You are invited to live within it.
There is an ancient tradition of women living alongside one another in shared devotion, care, and meaningful work. The House of Loto draws inspiration from this spirit, as lived practice.
For a brief moment, you are invited into that rhythm. Not simply to visit. But to belong to it.
WHAT MAKES this "MOTHERING" experience unique?Our HELD immersions are not a retreat center, Airbnb, or hotel experience. It is an invitation into a slower, more relational way of living.
For a handful of days, you step inside the rhythms of the Mothers, with the Mothers—sharing meals, walking the land, participating in ceremony, and being cared for within a lived community. This intimacy with the Mothers is part of the medicine.
“At some point during the retreat I said this opportunity felt kind of magical, and it still does. I can’t fully explain it, but it felt like a blessing. It showed up at a time when I wasn’t doing my best. Things were starting to shift, yes, but there were still things that hurt, things that hadn’t healed yet. Then [the Mothers] came into my life and opened a door I didn’t even know how to reach for. And on the other side of it, it honestly felt like the universe saying, “this is what you’ve been asking for.” It felt like a real gift. Exactly when I needed it…
That’s why I say [the Mothers] felt like angels in my life. They helped me reconnect with something I had lost for a while: my love for myself, and for life. After a few difficult years, that’s not something small…
I don’t fully understand what all of this means yet, but I know there’s something important in it for me.
I just want to say thank you.
Even though it still feels like that’s not enough. I love you all.”
— Michelle R, retreat guest
Allow your Self to be HELD.
You do not have to hold everything together here.
You do not have to anticipate what comes next.
You do not have to manage your experience.
You are allowed to soften.
To be cared for.
To be met without effort.
And in time—
to remember what it feels like
to not do it all alone.
DESERT MOTHER-LED CONTAINER
Who’s Holding You?
The Collective is guided by Desert Mother-led practices—rooted in the ancient lineage of the Desert Mothers, women of spiritual Wisdom who tended inner wells of Presence through silence, prayer, and embodied devotion.
This lineage shapes how we gather:
with slowness, not urgency
with listening, not fixing
with somatic attunement, not performance
The Mothers hold the container so womb Wisdom can emerge organically—within individuals and between us.
A LIVING ECOSYSTEM OF CARE
Your presence here is part of something larger.
Everything Loto offers is designed in the spirit of reciprocity—honoring the women who hold you, the land that receives you, and the continued expansion of equitable access through the Lotus Fund.
In this way, what you receive is not separate from what you give.
It is part of a living exchange—one that nourishes not only you, but the wider community this work supports.
BEGIN YOUR EXPERIENCE
Each HELD immersion is bespoke and co-created with you.
We begin with an exploratory Zoom call—not to plan every detail, but to listen for what you are needing and what feels most aligned.
From there, your experience is gently shaped and co-created with you and our Mothers.